Because my dad is doing better and because I was feeling restless from not creating, I got in touch with a friend and we played. I am grateful for her willingness and patience to get in front of the camera while I play with different lighting. She understands that as I'm continuing to learn the properties of light or as I want to try some technique I thought might be fun, we probably won't get any usable images.
Why would we do something that might not yield images?
- Because we can read and watch tutorials and lessons, but until we actually do the work, those lessons are meaningless.
- Because experimenting is the best way to learn.
- Because doing something that is not a copy of someone else's work is a way to learn and to develop your own style.
- Because it's fun to play and experiment.
We live in a world of instant gratification. It is easy to do the same things in order to get repeatable results that are immediately "nice." Raising the level of difficulty means you will have failures and we tend to be afraid of failure. We want instant success.
Real success and uniqueness only happen from a lot of hard work and failure. Then, when you do achieve something, you should feel proud of it...and get right back to experimenting and failing again.
Another friend told me I'm a perfectionist. I never thought of myself that way, but he did open my eyes. It makes sense. I'm always disappointed with my work and I always find fault in it. But, this perfectionism drives me to creating more and trying to improve the next time around. This is also another reason why experimenting is important for my development. I give myself permission not to create something perfect. I give myself permission to make mistakes in order to learn from them. When I do this, I'm not as hard on myself and my own work.
Here are a few of the lighting experiments with my friend. I won't add these to my main body of work because I see several areas I'd like to improve, but I did have fun creating them with her and I do like them...with all their imperfections.