This time I decided to shoot a fine art self portrait. The theme is self hate. It's something I struggle with and from statistics, so do a lot of other women. We always focus on the negative, or the things we hate about ourselves, instead of focusing on what's good. On the other hand, I think some doubt and a drive to improve is always good. We need to strive to be better, just not to the point of self hate.
I came up with this theme for the image because when I'm at my lowest, I always think that no one would miss me and I would be easily replaced. In retrospect, I know it's silly. But, part of creating art is about diving into those deep fears that we hide on a day to day basis.
Note: I am in no way condoning suicide. I struggled with whether or not to shoot this image because I've had two friends commit suicide. Suicide rates are out of control. The point of this self portrait is to show the death of self hate. Whether you suffer from self hate or bullying, suicide is not the answer. There is help out there and there are many others who feel the same way you do. Find help, find support, and know that you are loved.